I dont know what it is but I keep coming back
At times I want to leave, actually most of the time
But one thing keeps bringing me back
It's not the school
The luxury dorms
Or the teachers
Stuck in this dismal sea of gelled hair, Gucci, Prada, BMW, Mercedes
I WONT CONFORM to these "norms"
It is NOT ME!!
This place overwhelms me
It's that excitement of danger and mystery
What's around the next corner?
I feel like a rollercoaster is racing though my veins
As I walk around, my whole body is tense, I'm anxious
Why am I still here?
I try to escape every chance I get
But the second I leave I want to come back
I get angry and curse this place
Afterwards it leaves me yearning for more
Like a blood thirsty vampire
It's a crazy love hate relationship
And I can't grasp how to FEEL
I'm tied up in a knot of emotions
Being tightened by my feelings for this place and EVERYTHING ELSE!!!
These wild winds drive me to the edge of insanity
How must I cope? How must I deal?
In this place I find no solitude
Poverish, Wealthy, Crim Ridden
This place is not pleasant
Socially people cram into these glorified corrals
No short of cattle in a barn
Bumping, Grinding, Scratching, Clawing
I feel like I'm amongst lizards!
Sweaty and sticky as the loud beats take over my whole body.
Like I'm in a drug induced fantasy world
why?
wHy?
I don't like to do these things
What else is socially acceptable amongst this superficial population of DIZZYS AND NACHOS??
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